Thursday, October 22, 2009

Still Me Just Different


This morning we had a little staff meeting at work and they brought in coffee and bagels. I had already devoured a bagel with cream cheese and strawberry jam from home so I didn't have a bagel only I grabbed a coffee. Not even a coffee...I grabbed about 1/4 of a cup of coffee and filled the cup with cream and sugar. I took a sip and was immediately reprimanded by one of my bosses for drinking coffee.

I probably had four sips out of the cup all morning and poured the cup out. It just got me wondering...who am I now?

I went from myself to bride in training to mom in two short years and suddenly I find myself in a whole new world with new rules and new fears and somewhere along the way this is the person I have grown into.

Every night I look at myself and barely recognize my body and it hits me...my life is changing faster than it ever has. Everyone has their opinions and their ideas only I am the only one (along with my hubby) who can really decide what our little one's life will start out as.

For now I am trying the best I know how...even if sips of coffee gets me through the day and someone has an issue with it. I am proud of myself even if the world doesn't agree with everything I do. I think I know what I am doing...at least I know I am figuring it out as I go.

3 comments on "Still Me Just Different"

Unknown on October 22, 2009 at 1:40 PM said...

I think you have the right attitude. The world is full of opinions and at the end of the day, it is about the 3 of you. It's not like you were knocking back a jack and coke...sheesh. Hang in there. When the going gets tough, the tough get going - old saying, but I think it has a lot of truth to it.

farmhouse wares on October 22, 2009 at 7:17 PM said...

Bah! Don't let people make you feel bad. Stay strong.

little luxury list on October 23, 2009 at 1:28 PM said...

We're proud of you too. :)

Do what you want - it's your life and honestly some coffee or tea isn't that bad.

*hugs*

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